My Journey and Therapy

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder at 16. I spent quite a bit of time in psych. I knew that there was something not right. I had 25 years of therapy. A lot of the depression and mood swing and panic and just a lot of really hard things to deal with. BPD pretty much ruined my 20's and 30's. I spent a lot of time in counselling and DBT treatment. Life was one big drama. Then in my 30's I moved back to my hometown. I had a lot of issues. Today I am recovered. I still have the negative thinking problems but they are fewer and far between. I have done a lot of stupid things and ended up in some pretty messed up situations.

Scars are like gold metals of bravery and courage

Things No One Mentions:

I always feel guilty for the silliest reasons.
Feel like I am being scrutinized and judged by everyone
The ability to kick people out of your life
The Mental Fog
Never feeling safe and secure
Cant stand my own company
Dissociation is scary and confusing
Addiction to help cope.....drugs, alcohol, gambling, spending, sex.
Never feeling understood. Like you are speaking another language.
Love cuddly cats that crave endless attention and love

1 out of 5 people admitted to psychiatric hospitals have Borderline Personality Disorder.

1 out of 10 people seeking outpatient mental health treatment have BPD.